It's that time of year again.

Christmas was amazing. I got everything I asked for and more. I'd tell you what I got, but the list is pretty big. Just take my word for it. I will tell you though, that Chris bought me a diamond heart necklace. Don't be too jealous. I know I have an amazing boyfriend.

I stayed at my dad's for Christmas Eve and then stayed at my mom's for Christmas day. We had a Christmas party at my mom's and my mom told me to invite Chris, so I did. My mom bought Bacardi and Malibu Rum, so I brought up some Bacardi for me and Chris to my room and we had about 4 shots each. I think. All I know is I was buzzing like no other and that I've discovered a new love for drunk sex. Well anyway, we were doing our thing when all the sudden I heard him say those three words very quietly and I was in some what denial he said it, so I ignored it. He later said it again and I asked him if he was sure and he had said he's been trying to tell me and that he was going to tell me earlier when he gave me my gift. I wasn't sure what to say back and to be perfectly honest I don't even remember what I had said in return. In fact, I'm not even sure if he meant it or not considering he was a little out of it. He did say it again though when he left that night and me being caught off guard I simply said, "You too". He hasn't said it since though, so who knows. Maybe his penis got mixed up with his heart. When he got home and was sick from the drinking and I felt like shit the next day. So I guess you can say we won't be sipping on Bacardi any time soon. Eh?

Last night I had a get together over at my dad's and it was a lot better than I imagined. It was Me, of course, Chris, Jamie, Justin, Tyler, and Justin's cousin. It was fun and we basically all just chilled and drank. I did about 7 shots that night and had about a glass and a half of wine. I wasn't too fucked up or anything. Me and Chris did it again, plus another 6 times and 6 different condoms. Now that was the best sex I've ever had and he said it was, "The best sex I've ever had in my life." So go me! I don't have the pictures right now, but I'll maybe post with some at a later time.

Tonight Jamie and Ciara are spending the night and tomorrow we are going camping bright and early with the group. I'm hoping this will be the highlight of my Christmas break and that we all have a wicked fun time. After all, I have been looking forward to this for weeks. I'll keep you posted.

Jingle, Jingle, all the way.

So, it's the day before Christmas Eve. This is supposed to be a happy time of year, right? Wrong. Well for me at least.

Last night Chris and I got in a fight over the stupidest thing ever. We were on the phone and this guy Mark kept texting me, and I didn't want to be rude so I texted him back. Chris told me to stop texting while we were on the phone and I didn't and it escalated into him not wanting me to talk to this guy period. Why? Because I told him what the guy had been saying to me. Mark was telling me that I should have my boyfriend and have him on the side. Mistake on my part. I should have just kept my trap shut. At least when he asked me if there was anything about him that bothered me, I got to put it out in the open that it bothers me that he talks to this big nosed girl Taradactal. And I made sure he was aware that he can not cuss at me, ever, not once, not at all. It isn't right.

We're alright now, we discussed it and talked it over and things are running smoothly again.

This morning I was helping my dad pack up Sandy's things so we can get them sent to her, and he told me that he might have to move in order to keep his job. I was beyond upset. Really, this is a lot to deal with. He told me that he might have to move to either Georgia- ew, Florida, or Houston- again, ew. Florida I could cope with. It's just Georgia or Houston I'm not too crazy about.

We'll see what happens. It all takes time.

Bang, Bang, Bang and take your money

Fifteen days without a single blog. How disappointing. I swear I've been meaning to write, but something always prevents me in being in that specific mood to share my feelings on this great blog of mine.



Oh, where to start. Life isn't too entertaining lately, just the norm. Chris and I are good as usual. Under and above the covers that is. Sex is not as great as everybody makes it out to be, but for some anonymous reason it's hard to do without. Sex is a mystery that's for sure. I do feel that we have connected on a different level of comfort, as completely corny as that sounds. It's like once you've seen each other with out clothes, what else is there to see? You've already seen the outer structure there's nothing left to hide.

Blah, blah, blah too much talk about sex. New topic.

Strangely I feel really distant from Ciara ever since we've both had boyfriends. I'm not exactly a big fan of her lover boy. I find him to be a bit over obsessive and he seems really insecure about their relationship. That annoys me. This is hard for me to say, but he has a some what immature/perveness to him and its starting to wear off on Ciara. The immature part is at least. It's stupid, but she like burps more inappropriately and it's disgusting. Honestly, I can't deal with that for some odd reason.

I have to jet, grocery shopping, book shopping, and I have to get Chris another v-neck sweater from JCrew.

Outties.

No longer a V-Card member.

My weekend was extremely unexpected, and something that I will likely never forget. Major things happened that will stick with me forever.

Friday was some-what normal. Not something I'll remember for the rest of my life, we'll get to the juicy stuff later. Ciara and I got ready and Chris picked us up and took us to the Wendy's in Southlake where everybody was. Everybody- Justin, Brad, Hunter, Jesse, Zach, Carrissa, and some Bailey girl. A whole bunch of Southlake kids showed up because Brad and this guy were supposed to fight. We drove to about a hundred and one different places and the whole thing ended up not going through because Brad backed out. All of that was basically for nothing, but it was fun hanging out with a bunch of people.

Ciara came over after, we slept in the media room because we got a new big screen TV. On Saturday we woke up and made Chinese food and a cake. I cooked! And it was yummy too!

I later get a call from my dad saying that I need to pack my things because we would be staying in a hotel that night. I was in utter shock, yet confused because I had no earthly clue what was going on and he wouldn't tell me anything. He picked us up and told us that Sandy wanted the house to herself for the weekend so she could pack her things. My dad respected her, and we ended up staying at the Hilton right outside of Dallas that night. It so weird to be in a hotel when you're so close to home. It just wasn't right. After we got settled in to our hotel, we went to the North Park Mall in Dallas, and I just about died. Every store in my rich and oh-so-fabulous dreams was in that Mall. Burberry, Juicy Couture, Ralph Lauren, Niemen Marcus, and so on.... It was so hard to not go into those stores because I knew I'd want anything and everything in them. The only thing I bought that day was Chris a charcoal sweater from Jcrew. I still want to buy him something else yet, I just haven't decided what.

Sunday was alright. We went to the Parks Mall and I got my cross-country banquet dress. I love it. It's really classic and Hepburn looking. After the mall we went to Main Event and my brothers played laser tag, and then they bowled. I wasn't up for it though. It just wasn't my weekend. Then we went to Barnes and Nobles and I got two books, Twilight, and Go Ask Alice. I'm hoping they are great novels.

As always, Sunday night ended with Chris. When he first came over I was still really upset from my weekend and just got a message on Myspace from Steph, and things aren't looking too good with her. She was a good friend though. It's hard to give those up. I ended up crying. I felt bad to put that burden on Chris, but I couldn't hold back my tears.

Well this is where it gets juicy. We were doing our thing and everything was perfect. It went from watching television with a French Vanilla candle lit, to turning off the TV, blowing out the candle, getting under the covers, and getting undressed. Ah, the romance. Then out of no where my mother knocks on the door, and I yell, "Hold on! Hold on!" He hurries and puts on his sweater and I put on my t-shirt and pants. There was no use in putting on his pants too since he was already half way under the covers. I answer the door and she asks Chris and I if we knew somebody we could give this 'color changing candle' to, which she's holding in her hand. I seriously thought that was a joke of some sort. There I was, standing there, bra-less trying to shoo my mother out, while laughing from disbelief. She has never once came to my room, and the one time she does, Chris and I are actually doing something. Things weren't that weird after that happened, so we continued on with our doing. He did his thing to me and then I returned the favor, and then I had this urge in the back of my mind to have sex. It felt as if it was the only way to let go of everything that had happened to me in the past two days. So it happened and it hurt at first when he stuck it in, but when he fully got it in I realized why people get so hyped up about sex. It's great. And I feel extremely weird that I've had it. I planned on waiting til I was 16 and me and him were together for a while, but I honestly couldn't help it. It happened without a condom.

I said, "Do you have protection?"

"No, this honestly never crossed my mind. I never thought this would happen."

Once he pulled out.

He said, "I think we should wait until we have a condom."

"Yeah I think so too."

"I can tell you one thing though...."

"What's that?"

"You're definitely not a virgin anymore."

Then we went on for a little more until he had to pull out because there was no way in hell he was going to bust inside of me. I am so not ready to be a mom.

And that's where it sunk in. I no longer have my v-card. I can no longer say I haven't had sex before. I do think I rushed into it and I was worried that because we've only been together for a little over a month, that our relationship would be like those that are ruined or based on sex. I don't want that. It did make me a little happier to hear that with his ex-girlfriends, they had had sex about two weeks into the relationship. They still lasted a long time. I'm hoping we can do the same.

My mom also hasn't said anything to me about us taking so long to answer the door. I love the fact that she's so naive.

All we've got's a point of view and there's too many questions.

I all of the sudden had an urge to update and talk about my Friday night which was so totally amazing.

I went to the Fossil Ridge vs. Denton Ryan playoff game with Ciara, Jamie, Andy, and Josh. We won the game 31-20, and everybody charged the field- including me. I was so scared when I jumped out of the stands, but it was way worth it. Afterwards, Ciara, Jamie, Andy, Brad, and I all left and headed over to Hunter's party. It was kinda big. For the most part I played beer pong and a little bit of flip cup. I also talked to Frannie and we are supposedly on good terms now. I'm relieved in a way. Drama is overrated. She has changed a lot. She gave this guy RJ (#1 defensive linemen in the nation) a hand job in his car when he was taking her and Kristina home? I don't know what she was thinking. He doesn't seem to be too clean and I'm sure that was a mistake on her part. Her and Kristina were also making out in front of him in a room. What if she's lesbian? I mean, she never actually likes guys, so I guess it could be a possibility.

Okay, getting off that subject. I don't really remember much, but I know we went Wendy's and when I was there I went in the bathroom and threw up. Disgusting. It felt like we were in there for 84 years, and I was constantly calling out, "We need #31, #31 please!". Goodness... Ciara and her honey butter chicken biscuits. We arrived back at the party and whatever happened from then on is beyond me. All I know is that I passed out on the ground around 4 in the morning and Brad came and laid down with me. I'm not sure he's aware that I have a boyfriend whom I'm very happy with. Brad and I have a past and it should stay that way.

I might update with pictures later. It was so good to hang out with friends and have a good time without waking up with regrets from things I shouldn't have done.

I can't wait for the week to end. Hints Fall Break!

I didn't wake up today thinking that this would be a bad day, but to my surprise it was. Even though waking up completely exhausted might have been a hint. The tiredness was mostly because I had Chris over last night. I was told by my mother that he was to leave at 10, but time flys and he didn't leave til 11:30. She didn't notice though. Back to my 'horrible' day. During first period cross-country we did stairs in front of the whole football team which I'm sure they got a kick out of. Then after that, Coach Putter thought it would be nice to make me run extra because I mistakenly wore a purple shirt instead of green. So, when I was running he shouted to April and I, "I know you guys aren't the best athletes...." I'm shocked I didn't burst into tears right then and there. That wasn't the nicest thing to hear especially after I was pissed off about running extra and the awesome 10 minutes I got to get ready.

I think I made the right decision to skip 2nd period. I really needed some venting time.

Chris and I got in our first 'argument' I suppose you could say last Thursday before I went to our last varsity football game against Birdville. Which we won by the way. Woo District Champs! I didn't invite him to the game with me because I wanted my last official hoo-ha with my friends and I didn't want to have to worry about leaving him out or just paying attention to him. He was mad that I kept making other plans. I couldn't handle the tension though so during the game I texted him and apologized. Justin told me later that night that he had thrown his pipe out of the window when they were driving supposedly for me. I was happy to hear that, but he did smoke that night. I'm sure by reading this, he sounds like a horrible person, but he's really a good guy. Honest. For example, last week I came home from school to a dozen white roses and a teddy bear. Adorable right?

Oh and my mom has decided to get me a councilor, so I'm not sure how much longer I'll be using this to express my feelings. I think I just need someone to talk to about all my problems and help me get rid of all my annoyances. That would be really nice.

Pointless Caption.

I felt as if this was an appropriate time to catch up on my blogging. I don’t really update as much as I used to do. It seems that the times that I actually do right in here are used on problems and issues I’m going through. Fortunately, I have very little problems right now.

Chris and I are good so far. I hate to admit it, but I did look at his old myspace comments and seeing comments from his ex-girlfriends isn’t as easy to cope with as I thought it might be. It almost seems as if the things they used to say to each other, are the same things him and I say. But then again, it could be the similar to the way guys I used to talk to. I’m not really sure where I’m going with this. I mean it shouldn’t bother me and I’m probably making a fuss over nothing, I just don’t want to have any doubts. You know? And to add on to that, the other night we had like a serious, serious talk. He told me he’s had sex with two other girls before and I let him know that I’m still a virgin. I was kind of disappointed because I want my first time to be with someone that hasn’t had sex either. I’m jumping to conclusions though. Who’s to say that me and him will ever have sex? He looks at me as a really innocent person and his exact words were, “I was talking to Justin before we were even going out and I told him that I would be okay if the only thing we ever did was hold hands, that’s how much I just wanted to be with you”. Obviously that’s a little slow for me and I wouldn’t mind if things went a little farther, but I would really like to wait it out and not jump into things. It’s the only way I won’t get bored with him. I think that him being honest and telling me straight up helped me to be more understanding though. Maybe this is a good thing.

Anyway, on the brighter side of our relationship. He says that I’ve helped him not want to get stoned all the time and that some how I’ve helped him quit. He hasn’t smoked in 7 days and I couldn’t be happier for him. Being that he usually gets high about 2 times a day, this is a huge improvement . He also says that I’ve turned him into a better person. I wasn’t sure I had that effect on people, but I’m surely not complaining.

He went to San Antonio yesterday and he’s coming back today. I haven’t really seen him this weekend except for Friday, but I’m glad. Having my space from him will most likely make me like him more because we aren’t together at that moment and when he comes back we can catch up. Honestly, I just don’t want to get tired of him like I do with every other guy. I think I’m getting better at dealing with that though.

Right now I’m at my dad’s house and it seems like there is so much tension over here and I find it really hard to deal with. My step mom has been making more conversation with me than normal. I don’t really know how to respond when she talks to me because my dad just sits there with a weird silence. I wonder if she knows that I know?

This coming Friday I’m supposed to hang out with a good friend of mine, April. Smoot invited us over to his house since his parents will be gone and we can drink and smoke. Might I add that Smoot is a very cute guy that has already graduated. I know I’ll probably want to hang out with Chris, but hopefully he can trust me that I won’t screw things up between the both of us. Friday should definitely be fun though.

Woohoo.

It has definetely been a while since I have updated this thing. Good news though! Hollywood and I are officially together since like last Thursday, October 25. It's kind of gay that I know the date and everything, but atleast I'll know if we make it a full month. Ha ha, god that's sad. Wish me luck anyway!

I'll do my best and try my best to remember everything from when we started "dating". Thursday night I believe he picked me up and we went to Downtown Fort Worth. There isn't much to do there, but we went to Starbucks. He totally got me hooked on Chai Tea. Yummy! Anyway. After, we headed back to his house and I didn't have school the next day, so I stayed over at his house til around 3 in the morning. It kind of just happened when he asked me out. We were just sitting on his couch watching tv and like he would just randomly just look at me and in my head I was just thinking, "Gosh ask me out already!" and weirdly enough... he did. So yay for my first some-what 'real' boyfriend. Sord of pathetic that it took me this long to find someone, but he is the first guy I haven't got tired of and I really care about him.

Friday Ciara, Justin, Chris, and I all went to Downtown again and just chilled there for a while. Once again, got Starbucks and then left and went to his house. Ciara and I ended up staying the night and that was a huge mistake. His mom was pretty upset, so I don't plan on doing that again. I'm almost positive I ruined my chances of his family liking me. And it didn't exactly help that I gave him a huge 'battle scar' if you know what I mean. Big big big mistake.

Saturday Ciara's brother and his girlfriend were in town, so we went to the mall with them. It seemed as if every person on the face of the earth was at the mall that night. Chris and Justin were there, so we said hey. And then Beau called Ciara and told her how he saw her brother and so she went over to him to say hello, and just my luck Clint was there too. How wonderful! Not. Later that night we went to Ciara's dad's house and we smoked some weed and drank a couple screwdrivers. Then at around 1 I was extremely tired, so I passed out. I wasn't drunk, but I sure was high.

Sunday I had Chris over. He met my mom. My mom thinks he's cuter than Clint and that is mucho beuno. We just hung out and watch tv in my room.

Alright I'm gunna peace out, he just called me. Later xoxo.

Too much of a good thing is wonderful. -Mae West

Today was a fast day. I finally finished most of my spread in the yearbook. All I need to do yet is write a story for it. At 1 I got to leave school for an orthodontist appointment, thank god. I was extremely tired. I was so tired that when the ortho lady was putting my bottom retainer on, I was literally falling asleep.

Which reminds me... I hung out with Hollywood last night. He pulled up to my house around 6:45 in a white pick up which is their rental car for the time being because his dad backed out in to his mom's car. It was so cute though! We were still in my neighborhood and he asked me if I knew how to drive and I do, so he asked me if I wanted to drive and I did! Ha ha, it sounds lame but it was like something you'd see on television.

Once we got to his house his parents were really nice to me and so was his sister. They all knew my name which made me feel pretty good. We just chilled in his room for a little while and then Cameron, and two other people- Ally, and Dalton came over because they had just bought a hookah and a really nice pipe. They tested the hookah out, and Cameron asked me if I wanted to try and surprisingly I passed. I'm getting a lot better with this whole 'giving into peer pressure' thing. Then they left and Hollywood and I watched Transformers in his movie room. It was an alright movie I suppose. It might have been better if I wasn't so tired. By the time the movie was over it was like 11:45 and it was close to being time for me having to leave he asked me if I wanted to go to the Bluffs (best spot ever!), so we went and brought a blanket because it's starting to get chilly outside. It was almost as cute as the whole 'letting me drive' shin-dig. The view there is so pretty. Afterwards he took me back to my house and got out to say bye and believe it or not we had "our first kiss" and it was pretty rad I'm not gunna lie.

It was around 12:30 or 1:00 in the morning before I finally went to bed, but it was definitely worth it. He is really one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. He opens doors for me and everything.

We got into the conversation of his ex girlfriend Lily and how she was a big bitch when they were together, and he said how I was so much nicer than her. I hope that being nice is a good thing. And anyway, today she sent me a friend request on myspace. So, I texted him and said:

"Guess who added me on myspace?"

"Who?"

"Lily"

"Ok I know this is your myspace and all but please do not add her or talk to her. All she is gunna do is bitch at you for talking to me and then she is going to bitch at me for talking to you. All she does is talk shit."

"Yeah I wasn't going to accept her friend request. I just though I'd let you know."

":) You are the most amazing person. Like I'm serious."

"You're so cute :)"

That's word for word on how it went. I'm glad he knows that I'm not into those drama games. It's really not worth it. But I did get a little curious about her, so I went ahead tried looking through his friends list to find her so I could look at her myspace, but either he deleted her or she deleted them because they aren't friends on myspace anymore.

He asked me if I wanted to go to Southlake with him tonight, but I'm at my dad's so I told him that we should reschedule for Sunday. Oh and tomorrow my dad is taking Ciara, my brothers, and I to Cutting Edge which is a haunted house. That should be fun!

My thoughts were so loud that I could not hear my mouth.

My mom ended up not going out of town period. But I don't mind because my weekend was great.

Friday plans almost didn't work out with Justin, Hollywood, and this guy Jake. Everything eventually fell into place and we ended up hanging out for about an hour and a half at Hollywood's house. Too bad it didn't last longer.

Then Saturday I went to the school to work on my look-alike spread for the Yearbook. After that my mom let Ciara and I take out the car to "JcPenny's" to get Steph and Tyler birthday presents, but we really went up to the mall. I got Tyler a green shirt from Hollister that had a seagull on it and it said 'Singull and Ready to Mingull'. Ha ha, I thought it was cute. I got Steph 2 bags from Gap. Later on that night Ciara and I went to Tyler's 16th birthday party. I had a lot of fun. Tyler has been such a good friend to me and I was glad I went. Some of the dancing that went on in his little brother's room was a little disturbing though. It was like dry sex. I hope I never see anything like that again in my life. Then once it was over my dad picked us up, and dropped Ciara off at her house and on our way home he told me a lot about why him and my step mom are getting a divorce. Apparently, she has an eating disorder, is in great depression, and is a some-what alcoholic. I was in aw. Right now she is in North Carolina and will be there for about a month. I hope my dad is okay.

Sunday my dad took my brothers' and I out for dinner at Logan's Roadhouse. I enjoyed hanging out with them, except the fact that the place was its own little hick town. It was horrible. Later that night Hollywood picked me up and we went to his house and just hung out. He is such a deep person. Different than any guy I've ever met. He's just so interesting and actually cares about real things and isn't afraid to express it. He's really sweet too. He was telling me about a girl he used to talk to but it just didn't work out because she was too wrapped up in her ex-boyfriend. But her ex-boyfriend was a complete ass so he really didn't understand why, and he told me how he's the type of guy to go out randomly and just buy a girl roses or something. It was also really cute because me and him love Modest Mouse, and he had the CD playing in his SUV when he picked me up and dropped me off. Gosh, I hope me and him work out. That would be great. He might be moving to California or Pennsylvania though. I really hope he doesn't. Also, the guy I used to like is now back with his ex girlfriend. Good for him though, hopefully they're happy together.

No witty headlines today.

I got a haircut Sunday. It must not be noticeably different though because I haven't received any comments on it. Oh well. I know it needed to be done. My split ends were driving me batty and I got my bangs trimmed. I think it looks nice, and I was surprised to see that my calac didn't make my bangs look all funky like they usually do when I get them shorter.

Today was a calm and peaceful day. It was weird how calm it was. Maybe its fall, maybe it's something else. I'm not too sure. School started off with a timed test. Some what like the TAKS, but instead its a state test for Idaho. It wasn't an important test though, so its not like it mattered that on the last 15 questions or so, that I just bubbled in random circles. Who cares about our school statistics anyway? Certainly not me.

Yesterday I find out great news that my mom is going out of town next weekend, and she wants me to stay at her house that weekend to take care of the animals. I think she would have learned last time she let me have the house to myself that this isn't a very smart idea. Whatever floats her boat though.

I plan on having a small get together at my house. You know, just a few chosen friends. Like Justin, Hollywood, My best friend, and some others. Ciara talked to Justin and asked him if he has any hook ups, and we're in the clear. Hopefully next weekend turns out good. I'm really looking forward to it.

Nothing in this life is to be fear. It is only to be understood.

I'm in complete shock.

My dad told me he needed to talk to me and I was dumbfounded to hear that my step mom and him are thinking about getting a divorce. I never once thought that, that would ever happen. I know that they've had issues and divorce has been mildly talked about in the past, but I never would have guessed that lately it has gotten much worse and that they are seriously talking about it. I finally got used to her. I hate to admit it, but I think I'm actually sad that she won't be my step mom anymore. I do love her, and I just wish this would have worked out. She just recently introduced my family to hers at her parent's 50th anniversary and I love her family so much. It makes me wish that my mom's side of the family was as functional, loving, and real as hers is. I had so much fun in North Carolina with all of them. God has a plan for everyone though, right?



Really the only person I'm worried about is my dad. I would do anything in this world for my dad. I just hope he can make it through this and be happy. Gosh, I just love my dad so much. I really hope hes okay....



Eh, besides the divorce stuff... I've decided that I don't want to be apart of the games with the guy that I liked. We were pretty much talking for about 3 months. I'm just done playing games. Really I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of hearing things, I'm sick of seeing his ex-girlfriend all over him, I'm sick of waiting, I'm just sick of it all. I don't need this, I really don't. He wasted so much of my time.



Last night was really good. My best friend and I went over to Hollywood's house. Wow, that guy has an amazing house. Anyway... We all watched 'Blades of Glory' in his media room. And if you haven't seen that movie, I definitely suggest it. Then Ciara, Me, Hollywood and Cameron all the sudden figured we wanted to go to Sheridan's. Ah best frozen custard ever! Thank god Cameron has connections since it was after midnight and it was closed. We got free chocolate custard. Then after, we went to this spot in the Bluffs that's on this big hill where you can see the whole city. It was so nice and relaxing. I had a lot of fun, they are so chill and cool to hang out with.



xoxo.

Mondays always bite.

Since you have heard all my ranting and raving about Homecoming coming up, I'm sure you won't be thrilled to hear that it wasn't as awesome! as I thought it might be.

It started off as my date coming to pick me up and take pictures at my house, then heading over to his house to take pictures over there. After that, he went for a quick bite at Arby's. That kid ate 3 roast beef sandwiches. Fatso! I know. He's lucky it doesn't show... damn those v-lines.

Anyway, we showed up to the game and I sat with him, all of his friends, my best friend, and my other best friend and her boyfriend were sitting in the row behind us. Thank god. If it wasn't for them, I might have shot myself from the insanity of my date catching the crickets that were taking over the stadium. Senior? Hm.. sure don't act like one.

Well at half time- my friend decided to leave because her boyfriend had just gotten his wisdom teeth pulled out that morning. Poor kid... he looked like the saddest chipmunk I've ever seen. So, my bestie and I wanted to go some where away from where we were. We ended up going down stairs to the bottom where she saw one of our friends and he had a couple of friends with him. I got introduced to this guy named, Hollywood (that's his nickname). And boy is he cute. He has like this geeky/skater look to him, and I dig it. Let me tell you... it is so hot.

Meanwhile when I was down there, my date texts me and says "Thanks for ditching me". I just replied saying, "I didn't ditch you. You seemed pretty occupied with the crickets". Which didn't make him too happy, but neither did me sitting next to him watching him make a fool of himself impress me too much. So, when I was just wondering around I bumped into the 'guy I like' and we chatted for a while. After the game we were all supposed to go out to Hooters, but thanks to those amazing parents of mine- that never got to happen. I ended up spending my night at my best friend's and falling asleep at 11:45. What a fantastic Friday night.

Saturday night wasn't any greater. My homecoming date and one of our old friends that is also one of his basketball friends- picked us up and we had our own little get together at his house. We played a drinking game called Kings, with the few beers we had. It was actually kind of funny though. Every time you drew an 8, you had to pick a mate to drink with. And by the end of the game everyone was mates, so if one person had to drink.. So did everybody else.

After the drinks were gone we went inside and my friend and the other friend did whatever they did and me and my date were laying on the floor watching Varsity Blues. -I wasn't actually watching it though. I had too much on my mind. Surprisingly enough (not), my date would like grab me to make me be closer to him, But I wasn't -in- to like doing anything with him so I just turned over and went to sleep. Which he is still mad at me for doing, cause he thinks that I think he is the biggest man whore to walk the face of the earth. (That's only half way true.) And he's trying to tell me that all he wanted to do was to talk to me and get to know me? Bullshit.

Besides that, I got a text from a old friend I had a 'thing' for, for just about forever. He was supposed to be my Homecoming date last year, but things didn't work out. He asked me how my homecoming was. It was really nice of him, I hadn't heard from him in so long, so I was happy to know he thought of me. That night I also find out that, Mr. Hollywood thinks I'm pretty hot. Score!

Then there was Sunday. That friend that introduced me to Hollywood, invited my best friend and I to join him and a bunch of his friends to a premiere of a skate video that a lot of people in the area are in. So, when they came to pick to pick me up "the spot I had to sit in" just so happened to be the passenger's seat of Hollywood's car. Ha ha, I thought it was cute that he made all the guys pile up in the back seat of his SUV so I could sit next to him. Well we all went to the Southlake movie theatres and saw the movie. It was pretty awesome, I'm not gunna lie.

My weekend ended pretty well, I was pleased.

I'm feeling alive all over again.

I would say things are looking up. That's for sure.

My day was fine, it had its good and bad moments. Lets start with the bad and save the best for last. Well, I'm catching some-what of a cold so I got to skip out on early morning cross-country. (THANK GOD! its Wednesday which are hard days) Anyway... I'm still not feeling all that great and I hope I feel better before Homecoming. I need a miracle. On a better note, the guy I like is suddenly seeming more interested in me then usual. So that's a plus. Yeah so, I guess my day wasn't that fabulous.

Peace

xoxo

Soulja Boy Off In This Hoe

Watch Me Lean And Watch Me Rock

Super Man Dat Hoe

Then Watch Me Crank Dat Robocop

Super Fresh, Now Watch Me Jock

Jocking On Them Haterz Man

When I Do Dat Soulja Boy

I Lean To The Left And Crank Dat Thang

(Now You)

I'm Jocking On Yo Bitch Ass

And If We Get The Fightin

Then I'm Cocking On Your Bitch

You Catch Me At Yo Local Party

Yes I Crank It Everyday

Haterz Get Mad Cuz

"I Got Me Some Bathin Apes"

Song of the year? Yeah, I'm thinking so.

Temporary, but thats the way it has to be.

Okay, I'm in need of venting and that's why I have this. So here it goes....



Right now I have way to much on my mind about this Homecoming thing. This past Friday I went to the football game with my 'date and his friends', but before this 'the boy I like' had texted me asking if I could do anything that night. I lied and said I was going to my dad's because I didn't want to tell him what my plans really were for that night. So, I go to the game and this guy James that is has tried ruining anything involving having a boyfriend for me- shows up at the game. There is no doubt in my mind that he won't tell the guy I like that I was at the game with my 'date'. I mean.. they do have soccer together. Then last night, at like 4 in the morning my 'date' calls me (of course I didn't answer) and leaves me a voicemail saying "Hey Beautiful, You're probably asleep but I was thinking about you so I decided to give you a call." Wtf? I told him he's not getting "anything from me"(I'm pretty sure you know what I mean by that) and he had a girlfriend for a year and broke up with her cause he wants to be single for his senior year. So tell me why the heck he's calling me and asking me to hang out so much? This makes absolutely no sense what-so-ever to me.

Alright I'm done for my daily complaining.

xoxo

No longer a Blog-Virgin

So, let me start off by saying that this is my first official blog post (yippee).

Well, well, well.. I'm sure you all are dying to know what's new with me, right? First, there's Homecoming which is this coming week, and I officially have a date since 2 days ago. Yeah.. kinda last minute, but you have no clue how relieved I was that i finally got asked. -What a weight off my shoulders. Any who.. a senior asked me (by the way I'm a sophomore, so it's sorta a big deal to me) and I can honestly say I was disappointed the guy I wanted to ask me is unfortunately taking his mom to Homecoming? Don't ask I was somewhat in aw myself. I still like this guy, even though I have been hanging out with my 'date' alot. I guess I'll just wait and see where this goes, because right now my future is looking pretty foggy to me.

Next there's cross-country, and surprising enough- I grow to love running more, and more each day. I've gotten in shape more than I ever thought my body could be, and I'm proud of myself for keeping with this. I hate to admit it, but I'm some-what of a quitter so this was quite a battle for me. I've made it this far though.


Whelp.. that's mostly what's going on with my life, until next time.
xoxo