Nothing in this life is to be fear. It is only to be understood.

I'm in complete shock.

My dad told me he needed to talk to me and I was dumbfounded to hear that my step mom and him are thinking about getting a divorce. I never once thought that, that would ever happen. I know that they've had issues and divorce has been mildly talked about in the past, but I never would have guessed that lately it has gotten much worse and that they are seriously talking about it. I finally got used to her. I hate to admit it, but I think I'm actually sad that she won't be my step mom anymore. I do love her, and I just wish this would have worked out. She just recently introduced my family to hers at her parent's 50th anniversary and I love her family so much. It makes me wish that my mom's side of the family was as functional, loving, and real as hers is. I had so much fun in North Carolina with all of them. God has a plan for everyone though, right?



Really the only person I'm worried about is my dad. I would do anything in this world for my dad. I just hope he can make it through this and be happy. Gosh, I just love my dad so much. I really hope hes okay....



Eh, besides the divorce stuff... I've decided that I don't want to be apart of the games with the guy that I liked. We were pretty much talking for about 3 months. I'm just done playing games. Really I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of hearing things, I'm sick of seeing his ex-girlfriend all over him, I'm sick of waiting, I'm just sick of it all. I don't need this, I really don't. He wasted so much of my time.



Last night was really good. My best friend and I went over to Hollywood's house. Wow, that guy has an amazing house. Anyway... We all watched 'Blades of Glory' in his media room. And if you haven't seen that movie, I definitely suggest it. Then Ciara, Me, Hollywood and Cameron all the sudden figured we wanted to go to Sheridan's. Ah best frozen custard ever! Thank god Cameron has connections since it was after midnight and it was closed. We got free chocolate custard. Then after, we went to this spot in the Bluffs that's on this big hill where you can see the whole city. It was so nice and relaxing. I had a lot of fun, they are so chill and cool to hang out with.



xoxo.