No more regrets. All my experiences were worth it.

I'm slowly learning that regretting my mistakes doesn't get me anywhere. That doesn't take away the fact that I'm still completely fucked. Way, way, way, fucked.

I had another get together at my dad's last Friday night when he was out of town and apparently Chris and I left a condom in his bedroom where we had been having sex and lucky me, my dad found it. I'm grounded from him and Ciara for who knows how long and I'm so pissed and upset about it. He made me take a pregnancy test and now I have to find out all this information about colleges since I "wasn't thinking about my future". -Even though I'm not pregnant.

I was devastated at first, but now I think I'm starting to cope with this whole situation better. I don't regret it so much, only because I enjoyed myself for the time being and now I know NOTHING flies past my dad so I shouldn't even push it. All I know though is that I surely hope my relationship with him is the same once all of this is over, and that I'll still have my bestfriend. They are the two people that I would do anything for as of this moment and they both make me extremely happy.