Thank God for my menstral cycle.

And thank God for Jamie!

I skipped 4th and 5th period today because they were pulling athletes out of class for random drug tests and I have been smoking lately, so there was NO FUCKING WAY I was about to get caught for that. I would be deader than dead if my parents found out that I smoke weed. And this dick head, Wayne told the teacher I was skipping so I got written up. It's all good though. I'm working my magic and I'm going to get this all taken care of. At least out of all of this I got the $20 detox I need to clean out my system just in case they do more testing tomorrow. I'd rather pay $20 then have no life again. Anyways, I'm quiting though or at least cutting down until summer.

Overflowing Emotions

I don't want my dad to move.
I don't know what I'm going to do without him in my life.
I can't stop crying about it.
It hurts.


I feel unwanted and uncared about.
This happens every year.
My birthday comes around and I never make a huge ordeal.
I'm turning 16 though and it all seems to be about Jamie.
If I want to do something for my birthday, I'm always the one to plan it.
I'm sounding so selfish and self-centered, but just for once can somebody surprise me?
Think about me. go out of their way for ME, like I always try to do for others.
I almost can't believe I'm even writing this or these thoughts are coming into my head.
I can't help it though.


I'm so emotional right now.
My time of the month must be right around the corner.

Living the 'No Life'

I have to admit I'm terrible at updates. Forgive me. Although hearing me babbling on about scrap booking, school, and grounding wouldn't be too pleasing. Perhaps I'm the one doing you a favor. My grounding has consisted of boredom and seeing Chris behind my mom's back. That's just about as juicy as it gets. Thankfully this hell ends in practically one day.

For almost two weeks I've been really sick, so hopefully this virus departs like A.S.A.P. It has completely drained me. Other than that, it seems as if our whole little group we had going on has parted their ways since I've been grounded and everybody has apparently changed. It's amazing what one month can do. It's sad really, is what it is. Ciara and Papi now have sex which is a major shocker for me. So much for waiting, but I can't say I blame her. It must be difficult when everyone around you is doing it. I wish she had chosemsome other guy though, just because I think she could do better than Papi. At least she's happy. That's all that matters. Chris is turning back into what he used to be with the excessive getting stoned and all that mess. It bothers me that he hangs out with Bryan because that kid has basically used just about any drug you could think of. So I'll say PASS on having a druggie boyfriend, thanks anyway. I hope I put some sort of positive influence on him when I get ungrounded. Also, my dad bought me a 1990 Alpine White 535 BMW and I'm super stoked. Can't wait til my birthday! Oh la la, and today my mother bought me some Marc Jacobs sunglasses and True Religion jeans. Gotta love her!



Blah.

I'm not going to lie to you and say, "I'll update soon" because it's likely I won't, but how about... Peace until next time ;)



xoxo