Woohoo.

It has definetely been a while since I have updated this thing. Good news though! Hollywood and I are officially together since like last Thursday, October 25. It's kind of gay that I know the date and everything, but atleast I'll know if we make it a full month. Ha ha, god that's sad. Wish me luck anyway!

I'll do my best and try my best to remember everything from when we started "dating". Thursday night I believe he picked me up and we went to Downtown Fort Worth. There isn't much to do there, but we went to Starbucks. He totally got me hooked on Chai Tea. Yummy! Anyway. After, we headed back to his house and I didn't have school the next day, so I stayed over at his house til around 3 in the morning. It kind of just happened when he asked me out. We were just sitting on his couch watching tv and like he would just randomly just look at me and in my head I was just thinking, "Gosh ask me out already!" and weirdly enough... he did. So yay for my first some-what 'real' boyfriend. Sord of pathetic that it took me this long to find someone, but he is the first guy I haven't got tired of and I really care about him.

Friday Ciara, Justin, Chris, and I all went to Downtown again and just chilled there for a while. Once again, got Starbucks and then left and went to his house. Ciara and I ended up staying the night and that was a huge mistake. His mom was pretty upset, so I don't plan on doing that again. I'm almost positive I ruined my chances of his family liking me. And it didn't exactly help that I gave him a huge 'battle scar' if you know what I mean. Big big big mistake.

Saturday Ciara's brother and his girlfriend were in town, so we went to the mall with them. It seemed as if every person on the face of the earth was at the mall that night. Chris and Justin were there, so we said hey. And then Beau called Ciara and told her how he saw her brother and so she went over to him to say hello, and just my luck Clint was there too. How wonderful! Not. Later that night we went to Ciara's dad's house and we smoked some weed and drank a couple screwdrivers. Then at around 1 I was extremely tired, so I passed out. I wasn't drunk, but I sure was high.

Sunday I had Chris over. He met my mom. My mom thinks he's cuter than Clint and that is mucho beuno. We just hung out and watch tv in my room.

Alright I'm gunna peace out, he just called me. Later xoxo.

Too much of a good thing is wonderful. -Mae West

Today was a fast day. I finally finished most of my spread in the yearbook. All I need to do yet is write a story for it. At 1 I got to leave school for an orthodontist appointment, thank god. I was extremely tired. I was so tired that when the ortho lady was putting my bottom retainer on, I was literally falling asleep.

Which reminds me... I hung out with Hollywood last night. He pulled up to my house around 6:45 in a white pick up which is their rental car for the time being because his dad backed out in to his mom's car. It was so cute though! We were still in my neighborhood and he asked me if I knew how to drive and I do, so he asked me if I wanted to drive and I did! Ha ha, it sounds lame but it was like something you'd see on television.

Once we got to his house his parents were really nice to me and so was his sister. They all knew my name which made me feel pretty good. We just chilled in his room for a little while and then Cameron, and two other people- Ally, and Dalton came over because they had just bought a hookah and a really nice pipe. They tested the hookah out, and Cameron asked me if I wanted to try and surprisingly I passed. I'm getting a lot better with this whole 'giving into peer pressure' thing. Then they left and Hollywood and I watched Transformers in his movie room. It was an alright movie I suppose. It might have been better if I wasn't so tired. By the time the movie was over it was like 11:45 and it was close to being time for me having to leave he asked me if I wanted to go to the Bluffs (best spot ever!), so we went and brought a blanket because it's starting to get chilly outside. It was almost as cute as the whole 'letting me drive' shin-dig. The view there is so pretty. Afterwards he took me back to my house and got out to say bye and believe it or not we had "our first kiss" and it was pretty rad I'm not gunna lie.

It was around 12:30 or 1:00 in the morning before I finally went to bed, but it was definitely worth it. He is really one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. He opens doors for me and everything.

We got into the conversation of his ex girlfriend Lily and how she was a big bitch when they were together, and he said how I was so much nicer than her. I hope that being nice is a good thing. And anyway, today she sent me a friend request on myspace. So, I texted him and said:

"Guess who added me on myspace?"

"Who?"

"Lily"

"Ok I know this is your myspace and all but please do not add her or talk to her. All she is gunna do is bitch at you for talking to me and then she is going to bitch at me for talking to you. All she does is talk shit."

"Yeah I wasn't going to accept her friend request. I just though I'd let you know."

":) You are the most amazing person. Like I'm serious."

"You're so cute :)"

That's word for word on how it went. I'm glad he knows that I'm not into those drama games. It's really not worth it. But I did get a little curious about her, so I went ahead tried looking through his friends list to find her so I could look at her myspace, but either he deleted her or she deleted them because they aren't friends on myspace anymore.

He asked me if I wanted to go to Southlake with him tonight, but I'm at my dad's so I told him that we should reschedule for Sunday. Oh and tomorrow my dad is taking Ciara, my brothers, and I to Cutting Edge which is a haunted house. That should be fun!

My thoughts were so loud that I could not hear my mouth.

My mom ended up not going out of town period. But I don't mind because my weekend was great.

Friday plans almost didn't work out with Justin, Hollywood, and this guy Jake. Everything eventually fell into place and we ended up hanging out for about an hour and a half at Hollywood's house. Too bad it didn't last longer.

Then Saturday I went to the school to work on my look-alike spread for the Yearbook. After that my mom let Ciara and I take out the car to "JcPenny's" to get Steph and Tyler birthday presents, but we really went up to the mall. I got Tyler a green shirt from Hollister that had a seagull on it and it said 'Singull and Ready to Mingull'. Ha ha, I thought it was cute. I got Steph 2 bags from Gap. Later on that night Ciara and I went to Tyler's 16th birthday party. I had a lot of fun. Tyler has been such a good friend to me and I was glad I went. Some of the dancing that went on in his little brother's room was a little disturbing though. It was like dry sex. I hope I never see anything like that again in my life. Then once it was over my dad picked us up, and dropped Ciara off at her house and on our way home he told me a lot about why him and my step mom are getting a divorce. Apparently, she has an eating disorder, is in great depression, and is a some-what alcoholic. I was in aw. Right now she is in North Carolina and will be there for about a month. I hope my dad is okay.

Sunday my dad took my brothers' and I out for dinner at Logan's Roadhouse. I enjoyed hanging out with them, except the fact that the place was its own little hick town. It was horrible. Later that night Hollywood picked me up and we went to his house and just hung out. He is such a deep person. Different than any guy I've ever met. He's just so interesting and actually cares about real things and isn't afraid to express it. He's really sweet too. He was telling me about a girl he used to talk to but it just didn't work out because she was too wrapped up in her ex-boyfriend. But her ex-boyfriend was a complete ass so he really didn't understand why, and he told me how he's the type of guy to go out randomly and just buy a girl roses or something. It was also really cute because me and him love Modest Mouse, and he had the CD playing in his SUV when he picked me up and dropped me off. Gosh, I hope me and him work out. That would be great. He might be moving to California or Pennsylvania though. I really hope he doesn't. Also, the guy I used to like is now back with his ex girlfriend. Good for him though, hopefully they're happy together.

No witty headlines today.

I got a haircut Sunday. It must not be noticeably different though because I haven't received any comments on it. Oh well. I know it needed to be done. My split ends were driving me batty and I got my bangs trimmed. I think it looks nice, and I was surprised to see that my calac didn't make my bangs look all funky like they usually do when I get them shorter.

Today was a calm and peaceful day. It was weird how calm it was. Maybe its fall, maybe it's something else. I'm not too sure. School started off with a timed test. Some what like the TAKS, but instead its a state test for Idaho. It wasn't an important test though, so its not like it mattered that on the last 15 questions or so, that I just bubbled in random circles. Who cares about our school statistics anyway? Certainly not me.

Yesterday I find out great news that my mom is going out of town next weekend, and she wants me to stay at her house that weekend to take care of the animals. I think she would have learned last time she let me have the house to myself that this isn't a very smart idea. Whatever floats her boat though.

I plan on having a small get together at my house. You know, just a few chosen friends. Like Justin, Hollywood, My best friend, and some others. Ciara talked to Justin and asked him if he has any hook ups, and we're in the clear. Hopefully next weekend turns out good. I'm really looking forward to it.

Nothing in this life is to be fear. It is only to be understood.

I'm in complete shock.

My dad told me he needed to talk to me and I was dumbfounded to hear that my step mom and him are thinking about getting a divorce. I never once thought that, that would ever happen. I know that they've had issues and divorce has been mildly talked about in the past, but I never would have guessed that lately it has gotten much worse and that they are seriously talking about it. I finally got used to her. I hate to admit it, but I think I'm actually sad that she won't be my step mom anymore. I do love her, and I just wish this would have worked out. She just recently introduced my family to hers at her parent's 50th anniversary and I love her family so much. It makes me wish that my mom's side of the family was as functional, loving, and real as hers is. I had so much fun in North Carolina with all of them. God has a plan for everyone though, right?



Really the only person I'm worried about is my dad. I would do anything in this world for my dad. I just hope he can make it through this and be happy. Gosh, I just love my dad so much. I really hope hes okay....



Eh, besides the divorce stuff... I've decided that I don't want to be apart of the games with the guy that I liked. We were pretty much talking for about 3 months. I'm just done playing games. Really I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of hearing things, I'm sick of seeing his ex-girlfriend all over him, I'm sick of waiting, I'm just sick of it all. I don't need this, I really don't. He wasted so much of my time.



Last night was really good. My best friend and I went over to Hollywood's house. Wow, that guy has an amazing house. Anyway... We all watched 'Blades of Glory' in his media room. And if you haven't seen that movie, I definitely suggest it. Then Ciara, Me, Hollywood and Cameron all the sudden figured we wanted to go to Sheridan's. Ah best frozen custard ever! Thank god Cameron has connections since it was after midnight and it was closed. We got free chocolate custard. Then after, we went to this spot in the Bluffs that's on this big hill where you can see the whole city. It was so nice and relaxing. I had a lot of fun, they are so chill and cool to hang out with.



xoxo.

Mondays always bite.

Since you have heard all my ranting and raving about Homecoming coming up, I'm sure you won't be thrilled to hear that it wasn't as awesome! as I thought it might be.

It started off as my date coming to pick me up and take pictures at my house, then heading over to his house to take pictures over there. After that, he went for a quick bite at Arby's. That kid ate 3 roast beef sandwiches. Fatso! I know. He's lucky it doesn't show... damn those v-lines.

Anyway, we showed up to the game and I sat with him, all of his friends, my best friend, and my other best friend and her boyfriend were sitting in the row behind us. Thank god. If it wasn't for them, I might have shot myself from the insanity of my date catching the crickets that were taking over the stadium. Senior? Hm.. sure don't act like one.

Well at half time- my friend decided to leave because her boyfriend had just gotten his wisdom teeth pulled out that morning. Poor kid... he looked like the saddest chipmunk I've ever seen. So, my bestie and I wanted to go some where away from where we were. We ended up going down stairs to the bottom where she saw one of our friends and he had a couple of friends with him. I got introduced to this guy named, Hollywood (that's his nickname). And boy is he cute. He has like this geeky/skater look to him, and I dig it. Let me tell you... it is so hot.

Meanwhile when I was down there, my date texts me and says "Thanks for ditching me". I just replied saying, "I didn't ditch you. You seemed pretty occupied with the crickets". Which didn't make him too happy, but neither did me sitting next to him watching him make a fool of himself impress me too much. So, when I was just wondering around I bumped into the 'guy I like' and we chatted for a while. After the game we were all supposed to go out to Hooters, but thanks to those amazing parents of mine- that never got to happen. I ended up spending my night at my best friend's and falling asleep at 11:45. What a fantastic Friday night.

Saturday night wasn't any greater. My homecoming date and one of our old friends that is also one of his basketball friends- picked us up and we had our own little get together at his house. We played a drinking game called Kings, with the few beers we had. It was actually kind of funny though. Every time you drew an 8, you had to pick a mate to drink with. And by the end of the game everyone was mates, so if one person had to drink.. So did everybody else.

After the drinks were gone we went inside and my friend and the other friend did whatever they did and me and my date were laying on the floor watching Varsity Blues. -I wasn't actually watching it though. I had too much on my mind. Surprisingly enough (not), my date would like grab me to make me be closer to him, But I wasn't -in- to like doing anything with him so I just turned over and went to sleep. Which he is still mad at me for doing, cause he thinks that I think he is the biggest man whore to walk the face of the earth. (That's only half way true.) And he's trying to tell me that all he wanted to do was to talk to me and get to know me? Bullshit.

Besides that, I got a text from a old friend I had a 'thing' for, for just about forever. He was supposed to be my Homecoming date last year, but things didn't work out. He asked me how my homecoming was. It was really nice of him, I hadn't heard from him in so long, so I was happy to know he thought of me. That night I also find out that, Mr. Hollywood thinks I'm pretty hot. Score!

Then there was Sunday. That friend that introduced me to Hollywood, invited my best friend and I to join him and a bunch of his friends to a premiere of a skate video that a lot of people in the area are in. So, when they came to pick to pick me up "the spot I had to sit in" just so happened to be the passenger's seat of Hollywood's car. Ha ha, I thought it was cute that he made all the guys pile up in the back seat of his SUV so I could sit next to him. Well we all went to the Southlake movie theatres and saw the movie. It was pretty awesome, I'm not gunna lie.

My weekend ended pretty well, I was pleased.